This is a bit personal, but I want to share because someone out there might be struggling like I was. Last spring, I went through a really dark period of depression. I couldn't get out of bed, let alone write essays. I fell behind in all my classes and was facing academic probation. A friend suggested I use a writing service just to get something submitted. I found one, ordered two papers, and they weren't perfect, but they were enough to keep me afloat. It bought me the time I needed to see a therapist and get my mental health back on track. I'm not saying it's a solution for everyone, but for me, it was a lifeline during a crisis. Sometimes survival looks different than we expect .
I'm currently in a similar place and this post made me feel less alone and less like a failure.
I've been battling depression this semester and my grades are tanking. I've thought about using a service but felt too ashamed to actually do it. Like I'd be "cheating" or "taking the easy way out." But reading your story—you didn't take the easy way. You took the survivable way. You used a tool to keep yourself afloat while you did the REAL work of getting better. That's not cheating, that's strategic survival.
The judgment around academic help assumes everyone starts from the same place. They don't. Some of us are fighting battles professors don't see and deadlines don't care about.
I'm so glad you're in a better place now. And I hope you're proud of yourself for getting through it—not despite using help, but because you were smart enough to ask for it in whatever form you could.
Thank you for having the courage to share this. It helped someone tonight.
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